Complete In Christ

One night many months ago, I woke up suddenly. After becoming a mom, waking up in the middle of the night is not such a unique thing for me. This time was different.

When I woke up, the only thought entering my brain was, "I AM COMPLETE IN CHRIST!" It was repeating in my head, over and over--much like a hamster running on a wheel.

Despite my puzzled wondering of why I woke up in the middle of the night with this thought, I was so thankful to wake up with this epiphany, "I AM COMPLETE IN CHRIST!" While it is a basic tenet of Christianity, I think it is something that people easily forget when they get sucked into life. When they stop living intently.

I know I had forgotten it.

I had become consumed with the idea of having a third child. I would sit at our dinner table and look around at the empty seats, and I would think, "my family doesn't feel complete right now. Someone is missing." I really believed that our family was not finished. That there was supposed to be another someone sitting in one of those chairs.

I felt incomplete. I had blurred the lines of the godly desire of wanting more children with the nasty sin of discontentment and covetousness.

One of the hardest parts of battling with infertility are the boundaries of sin and self-deception. It is such a slippery slope. It's so easy to say, "but this is what God wants me to desire!" "Blessed is the man whose quiver is full! I want a full quiver!! Why can't I have it??!!!"

The problem is when one becomes consumed by the desire. And that is where I was. I had decided that a 3rd baby would make me feel complete in life.

And then one night, I woke up in the middle of the night and remembered, "I AM COMPLETE IN CHRIST!"

I realized that I didn't need a baby to feel complete. I realized that I was already complete.

Colossians 2:10: "and in Him you have been made complete, and He is the head over all rule and authority;"

Do you feel incomplete? Have you forgotten the promises of God? For me, it was thinking that I needed another child to feel complete. For you, it could be something completely different. A new car. Finding a spouse. Finding a job. More money. A vacation. Whatever. It can be anything. 

Don't believe the lie! If you have a relationship with Christ, you are COMPLETE!